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Debit is getting better

2012-02-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

Debit is responding well to the steroid eyedrops. Though he still need an amount of coaxing before I can apply on him. but hes cute and I love him lots! :P

Today i helped dar dar got a new phone - galaxy note, I hope that he likes it cos he kept saying how he prefer the current one. :(

Debit

2012-02-07T19:10:00.001+08:00

Debit have a small case of eye irritation and I was worried sick last week and now I feel better after visiting a vet who said he seems fine and gave some steroids eye drops for him. Hopefully he gets much better at the end of this week.

2011-12-31T08:28:00.001+08:00

Some things once gone can never be found.

Sad

2011-12-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

Theres no regret, I've known whats the answer before asking. Not everyone finds out whats wrong before making a decision.

Meanwhile I shld love myself more too! I really dun see whats the big deal with ur house and my house. Does it really matters? Since it matters to u so much materialistically, I am gonna give up too. Why shld I be the one trying hard maintaining this relationship.

Doomsday

2011-12-29T23:22:00.001+08:00

Doomsday have come and fresh start awaits. Could only hope for the best.

Studying

2011-12-05T17:20:00.001+08:00

I just dun like studying! It Makes me hungry! The only reason i can think of is that there's a massacre of brain cells and food is require to replenish them! Arggghh. And if I do not eat, all I can concentrate is on food i'm gonna eat next. =/

Persistent headaches!

2011-11-24T15:41:00.001+08:00

These few weeks I've been having this persistent headaches and it affects my concentration especially with an ah tiongssss yapping away on the phone behind me. I seriously feel like sitting at the reception.

Shld really purchase the 100 plus and try the recommended formula. Maybe I am just too heaty. Or maybe its a psychological effect from the exams! Arrrggghh...

TGIF!

2011-11-11T10:25:00.001+08:00

Yeah! Today is Friday. But exams are ard the corner! ;( I haven't really touch on revisions yet and i am going to miss out on one and a half revision class. Boo.... So sad la!

Anyway, I had a driving lesson yesterday. It's been like almost 3 weeks since I went on public roads and all the weird weird stuff keep coming up; abrupt lane change, changing down gear too soon, wide turning and blah blah.... I really need more time to practise especially the parallel parking. It's so shitty at a border line pass and fail point. Need more time.

It's hard getting a lesson cos I can't afford to book early due to work and studies. Shit lo. I only know for sure on the start of that month whether I am free which is considered late for booking bbdc class.. Lets just hope lady luck is smiling at me like I am smiling to her.

Long days, short weeks.

2011-11-09T20:55:00.001+08:00

I have been busy this few weeks. Weeks just fly by eversince I got a job! It's interesting how a job can change my life.

With job means $$ will start coming in and I can buy lots of things! Haha... There's so many things to do but I have so little time. I'm glad I took a break from work between jul 2011 to oct 2011. I started on so many things that I wouldn't have a chance to do or any excuses to avoid.

Dad's going crazy so I would love to move away as far as possible since nothing I do is correct and I dun need his consent so I would love to move away from him.

Study wise, I haven't got time to revise yet so I shld really get it started. If not I am gonna repeat again. :(

All too late

2011-10-13T14:00:00.001+08:00

Even though I am nice I get nth. I want to be fair to myself. I shld care abt myself more. It doesn't do me any good.

From now on, I am taking it slow. I dun have to force myself to do anything I dun want to. I need only answer to myself. From now on I wanna love myself more.

Vroooommmz

2011-10-05T20:43:00.001+08:00

My driving has improved although the engine still stalls but its definitely better. :)

2011-09-28T09:53:00.002+08:00

It was my first lesson for driving and I was nervous like hell cos i was really stressed about not causing accident. Hahah... It was really fun though especially when I e-braked and laughed like mad.

My parent went on a trip to Thailand but my irritating grandma haven't got her passport to go back where she came from. argh...

My dear bro

2011-09-14T12:33:00.001+08:00

I received a snail mail from my brother in reply of the letter I have sent to him. He has grown up a lot and I can only wish him all the best in his future endeavors.

I couldn't help but anticipate to see how his future might be.

He definitely has a lot to learn. I hope that he does learn leadership in the army.

Crazy day at Stc!

2011-09-12T00:24:00.001+08:00

It's really busy at Stc just now cos of insufficient staff again. Haven't experience talking till my throat went sore! And totally dun feel like saying anything now. Well its worth lots of $$$$!

Sleepless nights

2011-09-11T00:34:00.001+08:00

I am having a sleepless night! I have myself to blame for the greed of coffee during dinner! Now, I am wide awake but in need of sleep.

Well at least I found out that google came out with the blogging app I am using right now. It's so convenient as compared to then.

I rejected a job offer today cos of my indecisiveness. Forgot to use my brains when I accepted it and ended up landing myself in a dilemma. Silly of me!

Heard dar complained of the estee lauder serum being expensive. I hope it only happens when hes having cash flow pro. I dun know how much exactly he is having problems with cos he doesnt share. I can't help in any way except to find a job soon.

I have just started my revisions on f9 paper. And its boring me already. Though going through the text was different, it's a comprehensive way of learning. Hope I can clear 2 papers this time round.

2011-08-31T12:32:00.003+08:00

Some of candid shots of my chinchillas ====>

This is Porsche!

And this is Debit!

I certainly enjoy being at home with them!

I've got an interview tomorrow at 4pm. It's somewhere near my house, but i have no idea how long it will take to get to work/school! This is terrifying =[

I hope everything will work out fine...

2011-08-23T18:52:00.002+08:00

I should try writing an entry everyday since I am unemployed.

Well, today I passed my Basic Theory Evaluation. This was the 2nd time I am taking it cos I had the impression that it was pretty easy and i ended up failing the first try. So was my final theory evaluation...

Now I am waiting for days to pass as my "real" basic theory is in end of Sept. Boo!!!

Anyways, I failed my F9 for ACCA. It was not totally unexpected though! Hahaz... So now I have to resit for it in Dec and study all by myself due to $$$. A whole new experience for me!

2011-07-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

Heading to tokyo!!! I just cant wait to reach there!

I am also on SQ!

2011-05-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

Some people just have issues in comprehending questions asked. The main problem is that they imply too much...

2011-05-24T11:24:00.001+08:00

Didn't realise a simple action like sitting kills

Via: Medical Billing And Coding

2011-04-26T14:01:00.001+08:00

Life is boring... I am going to change into a more exciting one. =)

2011-04-20T10:12:00.003+08:00

Yes, he did it again!

Forever saying whatever you like but not listening to your request. To me, you are just someone who is more concerned of making yourself heard instead of answering my question. This is what I called egoistic. WTF.

2011-01-20T16:43:00.001+08:00

I am dying... Just Let Me die~

2010-11-01T16:59:00.000+08:00

I din know such bitch still ard.

2010-10-27T16:46:00.001+08:00

Helllllo~ finally got time to revamped. Will try to post some images up!

Dun u think that this skin is kinda limited? Boooo.... cant really post video~ argh...

2010-09-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

i hate this man.

It's time to REVAMP!

2010-05-26T14:35:00.002+08:00

Dear dear lost hp. Haha. Signed a new one for him.

Some of the pics send from his old iphone.

2009-09-09T22:06:00.001+08:00

Yippeee...

I am going Macau in Dec, all thanks to the company trip... Cant say i totally love that place, but it's a love-hate relationship!

2009-08-05T20:30:00.001+08:00

So fed up with today! Arrgggh...

I think I should just remain calm...

No need to get all worked up cos of tis stupid things... dun wanna get old nia..

2009-07-14T22:34:00.001+08:00

Found a new work. But the work is so tiring that caused me to have tonsils.

I hate that. I better find a way to go back early to rest to avoid having mc

2009-05-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

SO tired!

2009-05-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

OOh...

I got a job alr!!!!

2009-05-08T13:41:00.001+08:00

I really hope I can get a full-time job soon cause I really cannot stand working at Spinelli's any longer. Spinelli's is like a vampire sapping all my energy. It's tough and i am not suitable for the job. =(

2009-05-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

I need a job! Haha! OMG! I am going to yet another job agency firm located at Jurong for an interview. Had a really bad impression on them cause the suck the hell out of the jobseekers. Argh! Dear is so busy he hardly called me today =(

Oh well, I dun really want him to quit his job! Boo... cause it's really difficult to find a job noW!

2009-05-02T23:38:00.004+08:00

I am so bored at home!

Anyway, I am having 2 part-time jobs currently, 1 from Spinelli as a baristas which I am not really keen as the pay is low and stressful!

2nd job is at STC, which I find it quite ok! hmmmm...

The thing is that I felt like changing my part-time job at spinelli to NTUC. Pay is a bit higher and not so bloody far...

Anyway took this really cute photo...

2009-04-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

Oh noooo!!! I am still jobless.... What am i going to do?

Well, at least I have part-time, i still have HIGH earning power at STC!!!

2009-04-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Goodness... I have nothing to play due to the shutting down of a private server! Hahah.... so so so sad!

My goodness.... That is so sad! I think I just have to find another one.

2009-03-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

I am so bored at home!!! Haha..

I think results is going to be released soon. A bit sian.

2009-03-13T10:56:00.002+08:00

Today is a black friday, mood feeling really bad.. Dun wanna say anything anymore.

I just want to keep to my own world for now.

I really hate it.

2009-03-12T12:08:00.003+08:00

Interaction between my 2 chins have worsen! Now instead of kissing they are fighting... They dun fight all the time but when both of them step on each other toes, they really turn into tigers. Holly bites Debit mouth (which explains the hole in the fur) and Debit bites Holly fur.

It's so frustrating for me to see them like that... Booo. So sad. Thinking of getting a cage but dunno to move Holly or Debit in... cos the cage will be bigger.

They look cute in this pic right?

This was taken with Holly at the vet. The vet was kinda lousy.

2009-03-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

I am goin to finish watching 1 litres of tears soon. It was very touching how she can be so preservered throughout the end of her life.

If I had that disease, I would have been depressed till I couldn't do anything.

I cannot imagine a life like that...

Anyway, i thought it would be interesting to get a copy of the book 1 litres of tears.

2009-03-07T23:16:00.002+08:00

I have another chinchilla... This time it's a black velvet... This one has a problem however, it has cataract in one eye. A bit small for his size.

He is called "Debit". He's named by my darling... He's ok with Holly but sometimes she is kinda jealous. So they are still under supervision.

He is a lot smaller as compared to Holly, so have some problems living with each other. Kind of scared they will fight.

2009-02-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

I am really stressed out.

2009-02-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

Holly and I are doing very well! Wahaha... Love it. Ha ha...

She's kinda trembling, i think it's just lack of calcium so tommorrow gonna head on down to CCK or maybye Bukit Batok to buy some for her. Hee! She feels a bit hot too... but the fan have been constantly blowing her than me. Haix... Anyway, she is still lively! So I guess she's fine.

2009-02-15T11:48:00.004+08:00

Holly arrived yesterday with a series of interesting events! Haha...

She was supposed to come with the cage and stuff by the delivery man.

Meanwhile the dr

iver had some pro finding my house and called me twice! Even I asked him to move down the bloody

Bukit Batok West Ave 5! And I said no street, he still ask me for the street!

Then when he came over, he came without Holly... I was like .....

Then the man went back to bedok to get holly while I set up the fan for the chinchilla and also the cages... It was really funny but anyway.... Holly finally arrive..

She's quite scared though... Maybe she just need some time to get used to my house... But on the 2nd day she's more daring... I am thinking about buying the hammock! Cool? She needs a decent place to sleep!

Oh btw... my mum thought it was a rat and asked why the tail is so so so long. She even comment that a rabbit was cuter! But I beg to differ! Haha... from her tone, she kind of like Holly. =)

Yesterday was valentine's day. Dear and me went to The French Stall again! Well, you cant blame us cause the food is really good! Haha... Anyway, I have my virgin experience of tasting Foie Gras, it just melts in your mouth! And dear actually thought nothing of it! Ha! When I let him try, he was like WOW! inside. I could tell! Wahaha....

It was an unforgettable

experience cos dear got DRUNK! Wahaha, he din wan to admit it... WAHAHA....

As for today, I am meeting him later in the evening I think. Now just breezing through the AFA questions that Cindy Chong gave us. Ergh... I am so retard now!

2009-02-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am so tired.... LEFT WITH the last burst of energy..

I have not started studying nor apply for uni yet... I really need sit down and do serious work.

2009-02-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

I am anticipating the delivery of my official first pet -- HOLLY!

It is set I will welcome her on next sat 14 feb! OOHHH! This is so so so exciting.

Wooohooooo.........

This week is a dramatic and sad.... I just thought it shouldn't have started in the first place... Haix... SO sad!!!

I am goin crazy le! It happens everytime when exams are near....

BTW this post is very difficult to type... this is because of the siao siao keys on my com... they just start to break down one day and at the same time!!!

I think acer programmed this!

2009-02-03T17:03:00.001+08:00

I have officially bought a Chinchilla!

Hehe... came across this shop who sells it quite reasonably....

Then there's a lot more animals like guinea pig and gerbils! so so cool!

haha... had a great fun!

2009-01-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today is new year's day. Spent the day with my darling visiting his mum and close friends.

Hanging out with him tomorrow to visit this flirtatious fren of his. Mind you! I am only interested in his dogs! Haha. Sad!

Boo...

I miss dear....

So tired doing the proj. it's almost done... haha

2009-01-25T23:12:00.001+08:00

I feel so hurt, i feel so sad. i feel like walking around alone and buy stuff.

No one can comfort me.

I have only myself. I am so tired.

2009-01-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

Yo yo.... CNY is here! haha...

I am so sian.

Dear is goin to malaysia...

Boo... coming back the day after tomorrow! Missing him like crazy!

2009-01-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

I miss my dear!!!

Anyways, new year is here therefore must wish everyone a happy new year!

I am so stressed and exams are near. The application for university starts from 1 feb 2009. Kinda nervous.

I have no idea if i can do it!

2009-01-21T21:17:00.002+08:00

There's some people that he respect but I do not really have the same interest as him.

I am kind of sick of it too! I am human too! It is so so irritating! OMG...

Ha ha.....

And there's the belittling thing that I just can not shake away.

I hate that feeling.

Anyway, it seems that my uni dreams are very far away!

2009-01-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

CNY is near, but I have no mood to celebrate!

Exams is here too, just thinking about it is stressful!

On New Year's Day, I am goin to have to meet Mrs Yeo.... ooh! It definitely sounds exciting.

I am stressed...

I need some comfort!

2009-01-13T21:11:00.003+08:00

OMG.... I was out shopping for a pet this afternoon after school at Serangoon North Ave 1. I went there cos it's rumoured to have affordable prices, but much to my disappoint. it's not what i am looking for.

Went to this shop named "House of Chinchillas" and mind you, chinchillas as a pet did not cross my mind. First, the shop keeper lemme touch a guinea pig cause i originally want a guinea pig. It's so docile and silky! haha! After that, we saw a rabbit whose head is tilted to the side, but it's just its habits.

Then, I got to hold on to a chinchilla! and I totally fell in love with it! OMG... It can actually perform tricks. Haha...

And now I am stuck wondering to buy a chinchilla or a guinea pig!

2008-12-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

I love my darling and will do anything to stay with him.

His busy peak period is coming and I am really worried. I think I just need to go find more work to do rather than thinking about him now.

2008-12-26T10:01:00.002+08:00

Started wandering around in my face book and realised most of my friend look so different nowadays!

Each time I realise he or she is my friend I would be like WOW! Haha... Guess I am the one who never stayed in touch and living in a world of my own.

2008-12-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

School is going to start soon. I have not done any homework yet. Haix. I am goin to be deep shit

2008-12-23T21:27:00.001+08:00

I am the innocent one.. Just because i am sick doesn't mean i am trying to pull some stunt...

2008-12-17T17:32:00.004+08:00

Now enjoying holidays!!! Haix... Despite the holidays, I still got tons of projects to do!

I am busy watching Naruto in the meanwhile cause i cant seem to get into anything serious. HA HA...

My friend has a dog and he is going overseas for hols! And I offer to pet sit although it wasn't really necessary but i just wanna walk a dog...

2008-12-08T18:11:00.002+08:00

Currently in the process of studing AFA. Have not finished my first cashflow. I am almost dead!!! Hehe... I gotta leave early for somehting at 130pm which I dun think I will be early or worst punctual!

I am still wishing for a great big house for a big dog... But dear Kelvin Low does not want a big dog. Maybe it's just he could not bear to see another rottweiler except his "Debit".... Such a cute name for a dog.

2008-12-03T14:05:00.001+08:00

It has been too long since I blog... Common tests are just around the corner... hmmm a bit sian rite now... hehe... rotting at home plus doing some revision which cant get into my head. I just wanna sleep at home.

2008-10-13T21:14:00.001+08:00

Goodness. Men can be really disgusting sometimes!!! OMG....

Anyway baked this chocolate cake and messed up the kitchen and cleaned up only half of it. I mean this sucks. I hate him...

ERRRGH

And some freak is chatting with me
eeeh

2008-10-04T10:01:00.001+08:00

Dear just went onboard of the ship to bintan. heee. so sad this time, the weekend is not spent with me. boo!!

school is starting. i am so eager for sch to start. ooh.

2008-09-08T21:55:00.001+08:00

Ha ha.. finally have the time to blog.

Still in PSA. It was a busy day today. Hmmm. Tonight is a beautiful night.

2008-08-27T23:16:00.002+08:00

I am so tired from work. ha ha. Tomorrow doing a walk-in interview @ Keppel Club. It definitely sounds interesting from what my colleagues.

Working at PSA sounds fun - talking cock and stuff. Would love that kind of environment.

As for today, met up with Dear. Just learned a new word from him 领堂 -- which actually means mother. weird right?

2008-08-24T11:01:00.001+08:00

Ooh... Went to a diploma to degree open day.... i realised i dun have the capital to study. haha... hmmmm. it is quite difficult. the only way should be ACCA. hmmm... going to Monash University is not bad too...

2008-08-05T15:45:00.001+08:00

Dear dear is back!!! haha.... lol.... and everything is alright. so so so thankful! haha... I wanna go out! i wanna play!!! waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh

2008-08-04T04:49:00.002+08:00

I just cant sleep.... watched some senseless movies... but still cant sleep...

it seems as if it was all planned...

the thing i sun understand is that ppl just cant stop tokin about their sacrifices... i dun understanding... he only listen to those that is not important. i cant stand it anymore. i think i am going to change number....

i am heart broken...... all he says is just fake fake. it is all pretence. i hate it....

i am so so so so restless....

2008-08-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

I dunno what i am doin now. I may regret it later but i dunno what you want. I cant take it anymore. I am going crazy. I dunno how.

Men are all heartless creatures. I dun think they can ever lasts long. I got myself to blame for falling into another deep hole.

I need to study hard now. I dun have anytime to waste on other things anymore. I need to concentrate more on what is importantin front of me. It is time to take back everthing i have long thrown behind my back.

I want to be free. Thinking only about myself and loving myself. Nothing is more precious than myself.

Anyway had a fun dinner last friday. Met up with reggie and Kwang yee. It has been a long time since i saw reggie... I thought he would grow more muscular but he was much skinnier now than ever. hmmmm..... had some great dinner at ichiban and tok crap before going home. was kinda tired. haha. anyway reggie cheer up worx....

2008-08-01T12:38:00.003+08:00

I am so so so sianx... Sadly he has gone to Hong Kong. Maybe I should be less dependant on him from now on.

Meeting KY later... Today is finally the last day of attachment. I am kind of sick of this place. He he.

Anyway, decided not to tok to him all the way till he is back. He is always talking about not caring about his feelings. what about mine? I dun think he even knows what i am thinking. Furthermore, he dun wanna call me and giving me excuses. Well i dun care anymore. You might as well dun call me rather than calling 2 only?

I dun wanna tok to you.

2008-07-06T11:37:00.001+08:00

It has been a long time since i blog. kinda lost contact with KYee.. hello mr? you still alive anot? haha..... or are you in army le?

Just a blink on an eye, i have aged 1 year!!!! Oh noooo!!! haha. lol. it is sad. anyway, attachment is going to end. Gonna work hard for the last semester. heee.

2008-05-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

I dunno why i always get picked on! I am so so so sad!

Haha. i am almost crazy le.

Cooked my own Aglio Olio pasta. Not bad. Hehe... At least it is much healthy than going outside to eat. I am so sick of eating out.

My mood is especially down. And my butt is so painful! hehe.

Cant get this heavy burden off my chest, I feel like something bad is goin to happened. I just hope it doesn't concern.

Slept the whole day. Just felt like sleeping and i still have this persistent stomache.

This whole day kinda suck. I miss some of my friends a lot. How I wished we can meet up without worrying about time.
Liyana I miss you GAL!!!!
Weiting I miss you my Buddy!!!
Kwang Yee I miss teasing you!!!
Joyce I miss gossipping with you!!!

Gosh. How I wish i have the time to meet them someday.

I have decided to be real firm with my diet, now not only do I have 'shapely' figure I also have really no appetite. I am so unhealthy, now I am just a fat ass.

Smsed with Kwang yee this afternoon, learned about some of his 'tragedies'. I am surprised some girls older than me can be so childish or in a way 'sick'. How come they do not have brains or common sense? It is disturbing to see this kinda things happening around us. Crazy sicko psychopath in our world. I wish there is some cleaner to clean their brains so that they becum normal.

Sometimes I feel so lonely lo. I have no idea. I just feel so lonely and sad like I am fighting this pro I have. I am so tired. so so so tired.

I wanna cry.

2008-05-20T15:48:00.002+08:00

I got a bad stomache. haix. so so so sian.

I am so so so tired. Decided to cook instead of go out and eat. Cook something i have never cooked in my life. taste nice!!!

There are so many things to do. some i dun feel like doing.

Waiting for someone's call but i know it is not coming.

Sianx.

2008-04-21T12:17:00.002+08:00

It is so so so stressful. haha. lol. i dunno what to do. haix... one of the few times i really dunno what to do.

lol...

i dunno...

anyway this is what happened.

A and B is together. Then, A kinda thinks that C likes, cos C always give A a cold shoulder. ooh. interesting right? Then, here goes A dunno what to do, whether to tell B or just ignore the bloody thing. Maybe she is just overreacting which girls usually do, right? Should A even be bothered by this kinda thing?

A also have lots of problem with work. Cos because A is with B, hence A thinks that the colleagues are using colour spectacles to look at her.

What should A bloody do? No one even bother to teach her! A also dun wanna trouble B. And do you think A is being jealous? i really dunno. Is A thinking too much?

2008-04-09T22:33:00.003+08:00

I am feeling so so so stressed out; the ones i can share with are all busy. i dunno. i feel like crying out loud. i need a rest. i wanna cry. i need someone i can rely on. i am really tired. tired and sick of ppl expecting of me and not see who i really are.

what am i? a toy? i dunno. i feel so depressed

2008-03-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

I am here to update le! lols. haha... today went to bought wireless optical mouse for only $19.90! Unbelievable!

I am so budget~

I also watched step up 2! it is so so so nice

2008-03-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

Yox! had a busy week. Attachment started this week and i am starting to get a sneak preview of how my life is going to be for the rest of my life. It is a good thing cos i will have a lot more to do. Life is becoming more and more fulfilling.

At RSM Chio Lim, I met some wonderful senior and one idiot. haha. lol.

2008-03-01T22:11:00.002+08:00

Yox, everybody.

I asked that guy mr wong kok yin why he broke up with me, i know i will end up gettin hurt again.

haha. anyway i just wanna have a reason.

This is what happened. i took up the courage to call him. as usual it is always me calling him. lols. anyway he gave me the reason that he like someoneelse. and i asked him when, he kept avoiding the question. haha. lols. anyway then he changed the reasons that first i flirt wildly with other guys, . secondly he said that i dun give him freedomand talking about freedom he did not give me with the first reason. LOL!! He said i also give alot of black faces to him,.

Well, from the point i see it, i think it is his problem of not trusting me at all. Once there was a rider at sakae called andy. He heard from his friend that i asked for his hp no. not once but twice! WTH! And he rather trust his friend than me! As i said, he doesn't trust me from the start and rather trust his friends. haha. i dunno why man. and during that stupid relationship, he even asked me if i hate him and things like if i feel bored with him. which i don't. Even after umpteens times if saying no, he still ask the same damn question. damn i really love him a lot, and why doesn't he realise that?

He does not care about how i feel anyway. i am feeling so sick of this whole damn thing.

even before this whole relationship started i trusted him more than my friends at sakae sushi when they say he is not a nice guy. but all along i never doubted him. But in return he doubted me, betrayed my trust and stuff. I gave up so many things just to be with him and to take care of him. That is not even enough for him to trust me or even understand me. i give up. This sucks. I dun think i will treat relationship that seriously anymore i will only end up more hurt.

In truth i never cheated on him but cheated myself of my own right and freedom which tied down my happiness as i thought being with him is enough. I never ever did anything that is not for his own good. too bad he doesn't treasure us. good thing it is gone.

TODAY, i vomited blood. i hope it is nothing serious! When i told kelvin he thought i was joking! I am shocked myself. wake up early in the morning to vomit blood. sad. I hope i dun have any life threatening illness.

2008-02-28T21:59:00.001+08:00
i am so so so so low. haha.

2008-02-28T02:06:00.002+08:00
Yo. i am so so so busy these days! haha. busy earning money!!!!

anyway, ky? wat did mr stupid asshole wong kokyin say to you?

lol.

Just have a chat with my mom. talked about somethings in my life. haix. i am so really tired right now. I wanna be the best that i can be in my life from now on. i do not want any regrets in my life!

During the talk, me and my mom talk about doctor nowadays. I simply think they dun really do their job really well. Just today there's a newspaper report about doctors from two hospital being negligent. it is really bad. haha. Seriously i do not trust doctors these days, cos they dun really check you up, they ask you up! damn those corrupted doctors. They are way too much le! But anyway i do not really go to the doctor these days until i am half way to my death. or in another way i rather die than go see doctor. Because there are only two kind of doctors. doctors who cheat your money or the doctors blackmail you! haha. lol. chargin unreasonable prices for simple things or things that they cannot be sure that will succeed. what the heck? i Hate doctors.

2008-02-25T10:21:00.002+08:00
Yipppeeeeee, i am goin to sing K-box today. haha. lols. i am so so bored. bleahx

2008-02-23T12:06:00.002+08:00
I am feeling down. boo. not fair. haha.

Actually i can't describe my feeling. haha. lol. life is kinda sianx.

I also dunno what i am trying to say.

I wanna be back to normal when i can be so natural at doing anything. Now everything is just so strange to me, what am i suppose to do? I am so so sick of everything. haha. i have lost something somehow. i am just so wondering what i have lost.

2008-02-22T21:14:00.002+08:00
EXAMS ARE OVER!!! For the next few months, i having unlimited work. haha. i sound as if that i may earn a lot of money. Maybe it may be true. working 6 mths attachment along with sakae can earn lots of money ba. money is all i trust so far ba. haha. so so so really reliable

2008-02-21T17:57:00.003+08:00
today went for buffet. so darn full. i dun think my stomach will have space for dinner le. lol.

me and ky met at jp at 130. and then walk ard for a while before goin to the frontier to buy yusheng for the ky's aunt. lols the weather was damn hot lo. feelin kinda sleepy. ZZZZZ. then went we went back to tfcc it was about time for buffet.

after buffet, we went to wm to drop the namecards that coco gave us. cox wm always short of name cards. throughout the whole buffet i was feelin quit low. dunno why. must be because i haven warm up. :) budden i cheered in the end! haha. just like my blog skin!

cheer up tigger!!!

2008-02-20T23:14:00.003+08:00
actually for the past few weeks, i have been very moody. happy at the extreme and sad to the rock bottom. haha, that's how it has been for me. but gladly i still have my friends. i am really happy for my friends. it was much better than last breakup i have. i had no one then. i cried more then. but nowi just think a lot more. think about whether is it my fault, when i alr know the problem is not mine. For those who dunno what happened i will really update.

well, me and my bf broke up. a lot of ppl was shocked when i told them. actually he broke up with me. now wat is left is just memories. this time a lot of ppl really cared abt me from my mom to all my friends. but what i dun understand is why he wanna break with me. it was his wrong, how cum i am the only one who feels sorry that this once wonderful relationship is over. now everything just reminds of something, from songs to the notes i study for exam. one thing i cannot get over is the way why he wanna break with me. haha.

i still remebered that day like yesterday. that day he asked me to get a second gift for his mom. when the words came out of his mouth, i was kinda shocked but anyway i am ok with it. i just mentioned why now, it just have to wait till my pay comes out. then he wanted to use up my savings. i was like keeping quiet. cos i told him many times that the money is for savings not for spending. in the end he said i was too petty. then it was how it ended.

from then on, he din even give me any explanationat all. i dunno i am waiting anot. maybe i am but maybe not. i know i should move on cos ppl say he dun treasure me not my pro.

i just wanna say i need time to move on. he's trash i know. but i need time.

2008-02-19T15:22:00.000+08:00
yo. finally got the time to changed blogskin le. haha.

yipppeeeee!!!

2008-01-26T00:12:00.000+08:00
こんにちわ！わたしはチエンジアミン、どうぞよろしう！

wahahaha... cool rite? hehe... i finally can write jap le... :)

2008-01-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

Yoyoyo!!! everybody~~~ It has been a long time since i blog.... there is cobwebs everywhere!!!! hehehe... actually nowadays i am busy with alot of things like sch work and mostly bleach. haha!

CNY is coming soon! omg. It is so fast. haa~ hmmmm.... i wonder. heheh... i really dun have the mood to celebrate cos exams are near..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

OH yah me and him hmmmmm.... almost 6 mths le... haha

2007-12-20T14:36:00.000+08:00
I don't know why i have this kind of thoughts. bleahx. maybe it is because of the ppl ard me. the way they say things without thinking abt how it will hurt me. i hate it. all i wanna do is do what i want to do and not follow any of their 'advice'.

i am near breaking point, i do not know when it will end but i am really sick of this whole damn thing. is it so hard to understand me? i am so so so tired.

2007-12-05T23:54:00.000+08:00
Goodness, i have no idea why SOME people can 'think' what i say actually mean another thing? haha. it's so nonsensical. LOLS> it makes me wanna cry! Not only that, SOME people do not even listen to my explanation of my meaning is? which makes me wanna roll on the floor with laughter. HAHAHAHAHA. And then cry with overwhelmed tears. HAHAHA

SOME ppl also do not realise the hard work i put in trying to please SOME ppl. well, that obviously means that i have to be less CARING towards SOME people and be more SELFISH. Hence, become more smelly but got good fish to eat! Oh well~ blah blah blah.

cr~uk~ oops. my heart has been sealed and thrown into the vast ocean. i wish it will never be found again.

2007-12-01T01:09:00.000+08:00
Poof! i am dead tired. haix. i am out of breath and energy. common tests are coming soon and i wanna do my best for it. boo... but i dun feel like studying for it. haha... i am such a lazy bum~

2007-11-23T17:27:00.000+08:00
i hate to cry. i dunno anything i just wanna do nothing. i dunno anything but to cry. it is getting all numb. gosh . what happened? i feel pain

2007-11-21T21:10:00.000+08:00
i dun wanna go to china on 26 dec. i hate to disappoint but i really do not want to miss any lessons. i did give my dad the time when i having holidays but cant find then nvm lorx. i refused to go. it is goin to cut into my sch time ok? ergh....

i miss him to bits ha ha... he is so so so damn cute. haha... i wish i can see him today but i have to do hw and stuff... lalala... haix..

guess what? we even talked abt when we lived together would he come home early anot? haha... so so so funny... lols... miss him.

2007-11-19T10:16:00.001+08:00
i am back in sch. i am so so so moody and i dunno why. dun really wanna do anything. haix...

2007-11-18T20:22:00.001+08:00

ergh... feel so weird, like i am goin to be sick like that.

anyway i dunno why hav this feeling like i want to cry? haix. i have no idea. the only time i dun tink too much is when i am ard him. booo. i am sooooooo stressed out. but i hav no idea what. haa.

i am havin tax test this comin tues. it is so frustrating lorx. cos i haven been doin the tutorials and i dun wanna lose my 'As'.

i wanna cry!!!!

2007-11-14T20:37:00.000+08:00
Ergh... funny day i hab today. watched the bee movie... not really the type of movie i would watch but i just wanna pass time. the movie was really stupid lah. but i do recommend your attention if you got really nth to do.

2007-11-12T23:13:00.000+08:00
Damn! printed extra FIT notes lorx... damn stupid. the teacher go and put the same file in to two files and in the end i din notice and printed out an extra section of the appendix. although it say read only but who to know that means dun need to print? and that the same damn file is inside the lect notes? seriously this teacher have to go for some common sense class and if there is any i would be the first to recommend to her to go! ergh~

Anyway got my mcrosoft office fixed. haha.. got the new edition of microsoft word 2007. so darn cool la. it is easy to use but i need some gettin used to cos it is kind of new to me.

After fixing the com pro, me and weiting went swimming. At first, we went CCK Complex but too bad it is closed on Mon so pls pls remember dun go CCK complex for a swim on MONs!!! Weiting, having not swam for a long long time insist that we go Jurong there for a swim, i got nth so have to obliged. haa... reached there abt 3 then went for a quick dip. Swam a few laps and decided to go The Frontier to have the teatime buffet. ooh~ wanted to try the mango avocado handroll. super nice. hee... anyway.. after stuffing ourselves with Jap food we went home. was so darn tired after the 'rigorous' EXERCISE. LOL. Slept for an hour or so and then watched some TV shows.

Last but not least i really miss him alot nia.... haix.... bleahx... have to understand... ;(

2007-11-06T17:58:00.001+08:00
Gosh. just hate certain things. make my feeling sore and down. i dun feel happy. i feel hurt. he is too selfish le. and it pains me

2007-11-01T01:33:00.001+08:00

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Boo... today i saw a cat died on a road. so pathetic. i pray for peace for the spirit, for it died a painful death. i dedicate this post to the cat may it rest in peace.